Every year, the renewal for my blog domain comes up, and every year I have an internal debate about whether to renew it or not.
“I’ve blogged once this year.”
“Do I need Facebook and a blog?”
“It is a really cool domain; I’d hate to lose it.”
“Why don’t I just hide under a rock and pretend the world doesn’t exist?”
“Who really reads this?”
“How will people know to read this since I never tell anyone I have a blog?”
“What? I have a blog?”
“Maybe I’ll blog once there’s no longer 8 lbs of food on my dining room floor (Thanks kids).”
“Eh, I might as well renew it for one more year.”
So then I renew the domain and proceed to forget that I have a blog for the next 12 months.
Here’s my dilemma: I haven’t been able to determine WHY I have a blog.
When we first got married, I set this up and figured that I should put together a whole blog plan just in case I someday became a mommy blogger or something (Right? Because that’s what everyone does! Make money from your blog). But it never really sat well with me. I don’t want millions (or thousands or hundreds) of people knowing what’s happening in our lives. And really, I doubt very many people REALLY care if I moved a package of seeds from the basement to the dining room and back or if Ashley is hiding in curtains (ok, arguably more people are probably interested in Ashley hiding in the curtains…but it’s still a really limited audience!). And do the few people who really read this really care if I post a 1,000 essay on well, anything? (ok, there are a few).
I actually had an epiphany this week on all of these things. The catalyst: Young House Love is taking a break from blogging (boo…and yet I understand!). At some point in their explanations and processing, they said something like: “Why are we chasing something we don’t even want?”
Why am I stressing out to make this blog into something that I don’t even want?? I don’t want to be a mommy blogger, I don’t want millions of people to know who we are, I don’t want to be president of the United States (yes, friends and family: Vote for me in 2016 has officially met it’s demise). I want a place to record the mundane and highlights of our family, to keep a journal for myself of what we’re doing, and an opportunity to mull around some thoughts and flesh them out on “paper.” It wouldn’t hurt to try to keep my brain in shape a bit too.
And I want a pretty blog to do it all on.
So, somehow this week, I started poking around again on WordPress. The tools have come a long way since I last messed with it and I was able to implement a new design that helps me differentiate a bit more. (Technically, it’s still a slight work in process- I need Mark’s developer brain for the last few bits). But, it has structure and categories and makes me a little less crazy. Let’s see if the rest of the pieces can fall into place now!